Of Urges

An urge to express
An ache to be felt.
A need to be understood.

My blog needs a bit of all. Some other day, I hope I can finish with one of the items.

Together

An invisible thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place and circumstances. The thread may stretch or tangle. But it will never break. – Ancient Chinese Proverb.

The whole day was weird, and in evening, I was back again at gulping Whisky down my throat. I was wondering how can I escape from this place and go back at being alone. But, destiny had planned the opposite. Friends were drunk, wanted to escape the life for few days and move to some quite place. They had jobs and they had a schedule to follow. They wanted to break off. I, a loner, was working hard at nothing. I somewhere thought that I need break too from this nothingness but I was in dilemma. I have not seen much friends understanding my version of things when they are sober. In high state, who would listen? Soon, I was in an auto towards Anand Vihar for taking a bus to Rishikesh.

The problem with being momentarily drunk is that you come out of that state. I wasn’t drunk on alcohol, but I am always drunk on possibility of getting lost in exploration. Soon, when we bought tickets, soberness of my friends was back and they were reminded of their jobs, home and other responsibilities. They dropped the plan but now I wanted to do this anyhow.

In that itch, my journey started and I was on the way.

When, she heard me going on a trip like this, she wasn’t surprised but was worried the way I had left. That was the first moment, I felt that we are somehow connected with a thread of togetherness. After few days, I had decided that I may not come back. But, whenever, I thought about telling this to her, it was like something is not right.

When we are alone, we either regret or retrospect. I was in strange dilemma. I was suddenly feeling that I finally belong to somewhere.  To her. It suddenly felt like that, I need her. We need to be together. And with this I decided to head back home.

Before meeting each other, we both were on the crossroads of life and mystery and were interacting with our lives in our own different ways. She, on her path was finding, fighting her own battles. I, a loner was trying to shut doors from reality and were moving towards the illusions. In an illusion, it is difficult to say what is right. It was a dark path for me before I met her. May be we were losing but in the end we both were meant to be together.

Now when I look back in time there are many life events, where, I was lost and she sailed me back to the shore. However, I will always treasure this one moment when my heart desired:

“I wish I could stop the clock, in at this very moment of togetherness.”

Like people, some houses are just meant for you. Someday I wish to settle in such house from housing.com

A New Beginning

Some people are forced to change paths or perhaps they make a new path for themselves when faced with adversaries. For me the story was a little different yet same in the end.

It was year 2011 and I was almost bored of my job at a leading BPO. I liked the days there was a challenge but for most days, i had threatened quite many times to quit. Only friends, Table-Tennis and insistence of the manager kept me going for a few more months. Then for some personal reasons, I finally quit the job one day and just stayed living carefree (and carelessly). I wanted to explore a few options (i even considered running away to Rishikesh and becoming a cook in some nice cozy place there) and decide a new line for myself since it was pretty much clear that I could not do a mundane desk job any longer or ever again.

While I did not have a job and was wandering between decisions and dreamland, I happened to fall in love and then it was time to stand on my feet again if I had to claim my love for a lifetime. The rules were set, I could pick any job I wanted and she would support me for about 6 months at end of which i would have to “meet the folks”.

I tried a few places but my lack of experience in those sectors was not in my favor. After a few unsuccessful interviews , a friend got me placed in a company that built educational sites for various Corporate and colleges. My salary was one fourth of what I was getting an year back but I was excited.

So here I had a graduate in economics, masters in psychology and work experience of a Lead in a BPO. But no idea of website designs or platforms. My girlfriend would tell you that even my verbal English communication was an issue too coupled with my shyness.

I have found easy to talk to different people but that was no way similar to presenting your business plan or putting up a sales pitch in front of big shots of the firm you trying to work with ( actually work for ). For few weeks I had everything to learn and learn ASAP. But i realized i liked this job and so i gave it my everything. For almost 6 months, i not just borrowed from my parents but learnt to cut all my extra expenses and to let my girlfriend pay most times while I struggled to get a good hike in six months time.

I bored myself and few others with practicing my speeches , learning the profile and the services of the company be heart and more so by not just being the sales and marketing guy but also the one to be involved in almost all areas of the Project.

It took me 18 months to reach back at the package where I had quit 2 years back, but every single day was worth the fun I was having. I was lucky to be one of those who love their job and love to be at the workplace. I am still a long way away from where I see myself to be in next 5 years ; I have a lot of my own targets to exceed and make everyone who supported me, proud.

It was an impulsive decision to quit but it was very tough not to go back when nothing else worked.

If it wasn’t for that one tiny ray of hope, that one whisper to follow the heart , I would never have such a tale to share for #StartANewLife like many loving couples would do with https://housing.com/in

 

We – after an year

We became one

This very day we were finally engaged. We are not celebrating or something but it’s just a happy reminder of struggles, disagreements, fights, support and tears we shared in the process. The cycle of life is spinning. We continue to share secrets, joys, love and disagreements. The year looks lot more like this 😛

We agree to disagree in Love <-3

We continue our journey madly in love. Some say you have to struggle all the way. She struggles for me, sometimes with me but every evening she know where my home is.

We are stuck
like light and darkness
One is incomplete
Without the other.

Love you sweetheart ❤ Happy engagement Anniversary 😀

In this Sky

In this sky
There is the sun, the moon
And the infinite stars

I raise my hand to catch
A little from the sun, the moon
And the some stars

Some air, some rain
And some light
Is all I caught from the sky;

I drink,
Whatever I have from the sky
Inside me now
There are pieces of the Sun, the moon
And the infinite stars.

Who is who now?
Am I the Sky?